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survivor25 |
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Nov 24, 07 - 10:56 PM |
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I know this is a strech to ask this, but it might be nice to mention this forum and other materials out there for people like us on the show. Once people know they have a place to at least go and talk is the first step in the vail of secrecy of this disorder to be removed. I'm amazed every day just from this forum how many others out there have this problem, and I think I and others will be more amazed how many more posts we might see once the knowledge of this forum and other martials are known by the masses.
Not sure if this strikes a cord with others but I didn't even know the name of the condition my family lived under util I the heard Eminem's song "Cleaning out my closet". So when something is taken to a national and world level others have a chance to have a voice and we can see how this uncommon problem is indeed wide spread.
I will also hope that there's some talk about any possible link to OCD in combination with Anxiety. It's really hard for me to put into words, but i know what my mom is thinking and why she's doing what she's doing, not because I've lived with her but because of what I think are genetic simularities.. I don't think it's a accident that my mom, brother, and I, all have dyslexia. I don't think it's accident we all of have OCD (mine however is not as apparent as there so it was difficult for me the know I had it at first). Then you have my mother and brother faking illnesses. Though I don't fake illnesses and don't live that way. I was however, when I was younger forced to play the sick role on a few occassions. But, on one occassion when I was about 12 faked a illness and it was you guessed in lue of my educational problems I had. My mother it ate up and brought me from hospital to hospital. Bottom line I couldn't perform at a new school it made me feel messed up, scared, and the word would be a feeling of anxiety to be there...so I faked being sick. It was a new school that I didn't know my surroundings well and I paniced and fell back on what I was raised with which was being sick... Shortly, after it was summer and no more school, and I was magically better. Fortunately through the summer I had time to get adjusted to my new surroundings. Though I still was having trouble the next school year. The faking illness thing never reoccured because I had some what of an adjustment to my surroundings. Though it wasn't normal (see previous post) it was as normal as I could make it. But my point that I was trying to make, there's a certain feeling that one gets when people are fawning over you, and you are being checked over. At least the feeling that I had at that time. 1) was embarrassment but 2) was an addicting soothing feeling........ fortunately embarrasment won out and I never looked back and found that and my mothers and now brothers issues were embarrassing, but I can see why they do what they do. It's my "opinion" and mabey I'm dead on wrong that there's possibly a genetic factor and also a external taught life style factor. I just don't think it was a accident all of those things are in place with my family and they are shockingly the way they are. I like some, don't sit and say "wow I don't know why they are the way they are" for me I know it and feel it because I lived it and have at least a mild case of OCD, the educational problem, and the anxiety that comes with it from being put in situations because of it. I was lucky I learned how to deal with it. But like I tell people if I didn't have those few friends that stuck with me, and I had the work ethic of always wanting to be better, and the few external talents that gave my some praise from my peers I would be living at my mom's, on disability, faking illness for sure. My mom, brother, and I share the same things, but where we are different was my will to over come my problems. I feel they weren't and the more the went along the more warp and pernounced their personality disorders became.
I'm sorry for this being long. I just don't think I could even it being anonymous do the show :( as I still have quite a bit of embarrassment that goes with this disorder. But.. . I wish I could shout to the top of my lungs and say HEY DON'T MISS THIS OVER HERE as it might help others. Mabey I'm unique on this, mabey not.
Thanks DR F for taking this to the next level. I can't wait to see the show. Please let us know when it's on, and if you can't mention this or other sites out there it's okay.
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