Amber,
I hope you find a Christian physician but most Dr's realize that clinical depression is a real chemical imbalance. They don't think you're crazy. Matter of fact, many Dr's today are on anti depressants themselves. Years ago it was misunderstood but not so today.
If for some reason you can't find a Christian MD than don't think you can't go to an unsaved Dr. God uses all circumstances and all situations to accomplish His will.
My Dr isn't saved but she has blessed my life with her knowledge and compassion. I am even looking for opportunities to witness to her but that hasn't come yet.
I don't know what I would have done without the medication. You will feel a lot better too once you find the right combination that works well with your mind and body.
Keep us posted dear
laura

Yeah, I guess you're right about the doctor thing. I guess I just wanted someone who would be able to encourage me IN THE LORD, since I don't have anyone else to talk to right now. But now I have you guys (I mean girls!). Today my mom called and made it clear that she's not pleased with me and my depression. Now everyone is officially fed up with me. Just because I'm too tired to be like this all the time: . I know I keep talking about what others think...and I shouldn't worry about that--it's just that I've never been this lonely before! And I feel so far from God. He's the one I need. If I could just believe that HE is near me, I could handle everyone else abandoning me. Well, enough feeling sorry for myself....Sorry.
I'm just so desperately lonely.