ever hear the song "God is in control"? (I think Twila Paris does it) that song used to really bug me because it said "we will choose to remember & never be shaken" and of course like every other Christian who has lived with depression or any other ilness I have been shaken. We all are. I changed the words in that part of the song "even though we are shaken" Please don't worry so much about your salvation. The bible says no one can pluck us out of is hand. God know how you feel and he feels it to. I know what you are goin thru I have been in & out of the hospital for years with depression and believe me each time you leave that hsopital (no matter how much you may hate being there -I always do) you will be scared because outside those doors is the real world and you may feel all alone but know that you are not> God is right there holding your hand and we are right here praying for you.
Thanks for your reply.
The hospital is usually good for me, but I don't always like it. I have to realize I have an illness, not a weakness. Some songs and things I hear bother me too, I feel like saying, try walking in my shoes. Even though our faith wavers, deep in our hearts we do believe God's Word. Fear just cripples us, and depression distracts us for a while.
I know how you feel with the OCD and the obsessive, scary thoughts. I am 27 and I was in the hospital for 4 days in December of '05. I stopped eating and was extremely depressed and that is why my mom pretty much made me go in. I will be praying for you.
Remember, even when it seems dark and hopeless, God is there. The hardest thing to do is to not let your obsessions impact your beliefs.
