I can relate to how you are feeling as well. I recently got off of paxil because I thought I was "healed" and before you know it I would up homeless, jobless and in a deep despaired depression. You are never alone and who knows maybe having clinical depression makes us more dependent upon the Lord so its a blessing in disguise. The main scripture verse I am encouraged by is Gal. 2:20 and Rom. 6. Christ is our very life since we were crucified with Him and have already been raised and are seated with Him in heaven. I have tried to alleviate the depression by focusing my thoughts on these realities and as a byproduct I cannot think of lies at the same time. We who have expereinced brokenness perhaps are called in the future to be sensitive to others Christ wants to save through us. They will know that we understand what they are going through without even opening our mouths. Take care now.