Hi all,
I'm new here. I just happened to stumbled across the site. I am a Christian and my doctor diagnosed me with depression and anxiety about 3 weeks ago.
I just need to express myself to others who understand. My husband doesn't understand and that doesn't help me any.
I feel like I'm drowning. I don't want to be responsible for anything, I'm afraid of failing at school and getting a job...all I care about is my baby girl. She's my one bright spot in the middle of the gloom. I feel normal when I'm caring for her and holding her. In all other areas, I feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. I feel like I'm losing my best friend and my marriage because of all of this. I almost feel like I'm in bondage. I do things and then I'm afraid of the consequences, and when I'm doing them it's like it doesn't matter and I don't care and I figure what's the point.
I feel like I'm a failure so what does it matter what I do? It's just one more thing I'm failing at. It had gotten so bad that I've lied about things just to try to keep a bit of sanity and avoid confrontation in order to keep from feeling more miserable, but that doesn't work and I know it.
Can everyone please pray for me and keep me uplifted? I don't like feeling this way. I don't feel like me. I feel like someone or something else has taken over my mind sometimes. I want to feel normal and happy again. I want to have my relationship with my husband back.
Dear Karla,
You are precious in God's sight. He is not unaware of what you are going through. He is not the one that is judging you. I know that when I am going through the dark days, I don't feel God's presence and I have to hold on to what I know is true, God's promises.
Has your Dr. suggested any type of antidepressant? It has been a lifesaver for me. I am praying for you. There are people who understand and know what you are going through. Hang onto Jesus. Remember, this is a season and will not go on forever. I am also lifting up your husband in prayer, that God will give him insight into what you are going through.
