i'm actually feeling a bit better. never did go to the doctor or tell my parents, but i have someone i talked to. they really helped me, and i have been doing really good for the past 2 weeks...no depression at all, i just hope it stays this way. i have had a lot of good things happen since my posting...i am going on a missions trip this summer with a bunch of people from a church, i am moving to a bigger, better house, i am done of school for the summer, and i am totally on fire for God right now thanks for praying guys, and i will keep you updated as to how i am feeling.