I pray that in the middle of all of your feelings, you would have the knowledge of the peace, joy, and love of God so much and in such a way that it would not have anything to do with how you feel.
I pray for God to put into your life close friends that you can share and talk with.
I encourage you to express your anger to God...he listens to everything...even this.
I pray for God's blessing on your life at this time, tht people would see Him in you because of your difficulty,
